Hapless Hamster in a Wheel

3 Jul

Pop the champagne !  Turn up the disco music !

This is my 100th post !

With all the stuff that I write about motherhood, this post it about the turn of events that got me here.

You see, right before knowing that I was going to be a mum, I was a hapless hamster in a wheel at my corporate IT sales job.

I had been in the “game” for over ten years and in that wheel, I never stopped.

Constantly on the phone; Always tapping at the computer; Forever bullied by sales managers pushing me to hit sales targets.

“Submit quote.  Lock in customer meeting.  Close deal.  And repeat.”

It was more than coincidence that by the time I was pregnant, I had lost my mojo for the corporate world.

I no longer believed in what I was selling.  I was burnt out.  I was over the office politics.

Colleagues playing manipulative games.  Idiots trying to trip others up, in the attempt to make themselves look like the corporate business hero.

It was all bollocks and I would go home in tears wondering how my life got to be so off-track.

How did it get to being so directionless ?

Why the hell was I still in that wheel ?

As it turned out – a week after I found out I was pregnant – one Monday morning, I was called into the boardroom.  After a whole lot of waffle from the boss and his sidekick, they cordially gave me “the nudge”.

I handed over my laptop and phone immediately and I politely walked out the door.

(While really I should ‘ve just given them the finger).

People told me I should’ve sued them.

“Companies just can’t sack people anymore !  That’s illegal !”

Friends would say.

The thing is, that’s the corporate life for you.

Heartless, cold and cut-throat.

And, really.  It was a blessing.

Two weeks after my *ahem* dismissal, we went for our first ultrasound.  At almost 7 weeks pregnant, we found out we were having twins.

And instantaneously, the doctor told me that as it was monozygotic (two sacs, one placenta), I was immediately ranked as a high-risk pregnancy.

“Is your job stressful ?” she asked.

“Well, actually I just quit not too long ago.”

“Just as well…”

I’m one of those people who believe that things happen for a reason.

Although I was obviously unhappy with my hamster situation, Something had to happen to give me that push.

I couldn’t make that initial change on my own.

And now, here I am.

On a completely different journey.

One without corporate bullies or caged wheels to hold me back.

Me in my new job title: Mum of twins...


14 Responses to “Hapless Hamster in a Wheel”

  1. Jessicats Zografos July 3, 2011 at 9:32 pm #

    Yay! I’m a great believer that everything happens for a reason, sometimes that reason isn’t so obvious though. There’s nothing quite like bringing 2 healthy twins into the world. A double blessing. That is a beautiful photo of you and your babies!!! So nice to “see” you xxx

    • Jessicats Zografos July 3, 2011 at 9:33 pm #

      Oh! And CONGRATULATIONS on 100 posts!!!!! xxx

      • mamagrace71 July 3, 2011 at 9:42 pm #

        Haha ! Thanks again. The champagne and disco music are happening in my head 🙂

    • mamagrace71 July 3, 2011 at 9:40 pm #

      Thank you !
      I really needed an obvious big push. And I’m glad I got out. Haven’t looked back since 🙂

  2. Sarah @GettingfromHeretoThere July 4, 2011 at 10:49 am #

    Congratulations!!! One of my favourite words in the world is serendipity – meaningful coincidences most definitely happen! And I bet you never smiled like in that pic when you were on that wheel 😉
    Here’s to the first hundred posts and hundreds more to come xo

    • mamagrace71 July 4, 2011 at 11:20 am #

      Nice pick on the smile 🙂 Yes, very true. I never smiled like that during my Hamster days.
      Thank you for the well-wishes x

  3. Nay July 4, 2011 at 2:11 pm #

    I do think everything happens for a reason and from reading your blog from start to finish (lots of free time on my hand with my husband working late most nights) I can tell you are holding the perfect job title now 🙂

    I hope you don’t mind me sticking around from now on – I am loving your blog 🙂

    • mamagrace71 July 4, 2011 at 2:21 pm #

      Of course I don’t mind ! It’s an honor to have you around 🙂
      And congrats on your exciting news ( just left you a comment too).
      I miss my days in Japan so reading your adventures allows be to go back there x

  4. muminsearch July 4, 2011 at 10:27 pm #

    100 posts! You got there quickly, congratulations! I was in a rut with my job, too. In fact, I cut down to working 2 days a week so that I can get some rest and look for something else and then a week later I found out I was pregnant. I haven’t had a proper job for 4.5 years now and I’m so not looking forward to getting one. Just trying to convince my husband that another baby is the way to go 😉

    • mamagrace71 July 5, 2011 at 8:51 am #

      Thank you ! You’ve been one of the readers that have been around right from the beginning 🙂
      Go for another, I say ! Life’s too short. Work can wait.
      As I was saying to a friend the other day, I’m never going back for the sake of just “going back”.
      It’s gotta be right. Or I will be back to the same situation I was in before.

  5. Gemma @ My Big Nutshell July 8, 2011 at 1:30 pm #

    Oh Wow! congrats on your 100th post! I love that photo of you in the hospital with your newborn twins, the look on your face is joyful! Glad the nudge worked out so well.

  6. daisyrooandtwo July 8, 2011 at 10:18 pm #

    Yay for twinlets!!! They make everything better! It’s just amazing how the world works – I am so glad oyu are out of that atmosphere and into a much better (but still a little bit stressful) hamster wheel 🙂

  7. ellie July 11, 2011 at 3:46 pm #

    im just catching up on your posts, I remember those days and I truly believe things happen for a reason and I am glad things went the way they did and you got rid of the stress. In fact nothing changes in that workplace you refer to I just heard they did that to someone else the other week as they did not fit in with a certain click and way of doing things. Some of us just never conform do we 😉 and thats not a bad thing. Although I must say what happened to you changed my opinion about that place I just have to many morals to sit back and watch ppl being bullied in the workplace. You only have one life and you have to make the most of it . Love the blog xxxxxx

  8. brodricklive365 July 11, 2011 at 9:18 pm #

    Hi, Newbie follower from FYBF. I love the photo of you with your twins – you look just over the moon. Congratulations on your new “job”.

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